人總須要勇敢生存 我還是重新許願

累..

The pacing of this city is way to fast for mi^^ now..
and I start to think of slow down a bit to set my own a signature pace might be better than to push myself to catch up with the city.. ..to live out my life.

a brand new mi^^

仍是雨夜 凝望窗外 沉默的天際 問蒼天 可會知 心裡的感覺

讓雨點輕輕的灑過 強把憂鬱再掩蓋 像碎星閃閃於天空

叫 喚 你

sweet dreams

By what reasons make me can’t hear your response?

Was it my aggressive actions?

Or, was it that I have been putting too much hopes? My unnecessary optimistic thoughts to cover the answer you have already told me a thousand time?

Or, was it the truth… is that you actually do not want to respond me at all? Just feeling fun on watching me being busy here and there for the sake of what means nothing to it.

If it is a stage play I am performing for just to entertain you, please mercy me with your kindness… wake me up with the fact that I am doing somethings meaningless, hoping for nothing which will not respond to me.

Maybe.. It is just me to keep on ignoring the response you’ve already told me thousands time. For it was just the response that I keep on refusing to believe it from the bottom of my heart. If it is so, please do me a favour for the very last time… please let the curtains call and please break my heart completely so I will not have any hope anymore from you.

I will still be another pathetic character that keep you entertained, cause I know it is my inevitable fate.

回應

敢情是我過分期盼你那實不存在過的回應。

還是我白目地視而不見、聽而不聞你那明確的答覆，只因我無力承受那令人心碎的回應。

可我看到沿途上都是可能性啊，但又為甚麼你的步伐都滿載碎片的肆虐地踏過，又這麼輕率地溫柔地招呼着經過，每每讓我走上前頭蹲在路旁雙手合十滿眼期盼你的頷首回應。可是，從來沒有。

其實你是來看我這個天大笑話吧！ 是啊我沒有一刻讓你失望過。我是如斯的這般那樣的努力，仿彿一切都終究會是真摯的回應。而事實上我只是轉輪裏不斷跑呀跑的蠢鼠，看到的是前面那要跑就有的一條永恆的康莊大路。

是有夠蠢吧！我已知道了、明白了。可否就請施與你的慈悲，把我狠狠地抽起來，再無情的摔進泥濘裏也無所謂。我會滑稽地爬起來繼續扮演不同的丑角，終我一生地娛樂着你，只因這是我的宿命。

Devil was an angel… when he hasn’t been named as Devil.

魔鬼未當魔鬼之前… 其實是位天使

鬱悶得直想大叫

What have I done today..

仍是雨夜 凝望窗外 沉默的天際 問蒼天 可會知 心裡的感覺

讓雨點輕輕的灑過 強把憂鬱再掩蓋 像碎星閃閃於天空

叫 喚 你

sweet dreams